by Ricky Doc Sauceda
I began posting poems and thoughts in February of 2010. A year before that, I was just beginning a process to rebuild my life. I had no idea that this would take so much time. I have been able to get back to level ground much quicker in the past. I do, however, realize why it is different this time around.
In the past I was a younger man who God loved and helped out of grace. I had children to care for and raise. They are grown now and the Lord is now being more thorough about my relationship with Him. Life is at a midpoint now and He is has been utilizing me for His purposes. At times it has been painful.
I continue to live as a good man in this world. Not perfect, not holy. A child of God. I have heard His voice in the Spirit, I have seen two visions of Him in the sky, I have seen Holy Mother Mary as a vision in the sky, I have seen the splendor of angels in a vision in my first one bedroom apartment, I have seen the Eye of the Lord (Holy Spirit), I have seen a flame before my eyes (again the Holy Spirit), and I have seen a host of angels above my current apartment where I live now. I have had additional visions that I recently shared with my Facebook and Twitter friends.
Yet when I faced struggles in my recent past, I had fears, confusion and doubts. I forgot about all of the magnificent things the Lord allows me to see. I had forgotten to keep Him in my heart at all times. What can do that? Well, we are taught that life is a spiritual war. Satan is always plotting and planning ways to disrupt our lives. The tools are many that the devil can use: people and situations.
People can be used to cause problems in various ways. As false friends, enemies, rivals and in relationships of different kinds such as these. We can be hurt by people...deeply. I was. I had hurts from too many and too soon.
I have also been doing good things to keep me afloat. The key is my faith relationship with Jesus Christ. It is this relationship that enabled me to be here today...writing another story for you to take in.
I also have been making wonderful friends on Facebook and gaining good followers on Twitter. This work of love is my joy. This is what keeps me going. This is how I best serve the Lord. I am reaching out and into people for the glory of the Lord. This is beautiful and very special.
My "Point of Focus" is my Christian faith. Even though I wane from recalling great experiences, I feel connected in my faith. As life clears and settles at moments I recall the great events I was blessed to witness and experience. I am glad that I recorded them here on my blog.
I love looking back at my accounts and reading my heart's expressions. I am amazed that I wrote them. I make so much sense and offer a different view into the life of a Christian. I can see that I have a deep love for the Lord.
I have a good life. I am glad. I can see the handiwork of the Lord in my life.