I Can Breathe
by Ricky Doc Sauceda
Ezekiel 37:5 - This is what the Sovereign LORD says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life.
Tomorrow is the last day of August 2012. We are on a progression to the Holiday Season. It's coming fast.
I am prepared to spend time in my church teaching and worshiping. I am prepared to share here every day. I am brave to know it will a time of loneliness once again.
I will be creating new stories for my website between here and then. I am not in pain and suffering like I was only a year ago. I have begun to smile and breath again.
Yes, I had lost my smile. I felt an onslaught of pressure every day. I prayed and focused very hard since the early part of 2009. I am not gasping for life's air now. I am steadied...not quite able to enjoy the extras of life, but much better.
My past stories include that the Lord has told me repeatedly to be ready. He tells me this every day and it is in every day I see little ways that I need to be ready. I need to be ready to do my best on my job, behave responsibly and to respond to my friends needs in a timely manner.
I still have to work five days a week in a very demanding environment. I still have to cope with the very same budget every month. I still have to keep looking to the Lord for peace.
Here is what's different this year: I do not have to fear getting my vehicle repossessed because of falling behind on payments due to losing my previous job and income. I do not have to fear being behind on paying State Farm back for every penny they paid out in claims for an accident I was involved in almost a decade ago. I do not have to hurt after losing a relationship that I could not trust in.
I also have a host of special new friends that I am very grateful for. I continue to maintain a relationship with the friends that I have always had here. I am now able to share with a much larger group of loving and caring people.
It feels good to be able to share and love and have it returned. I am very thankful for this experience. I needed kindness and friendship. I have indeed touched on this here. It is very special and I thank each and every one of you for it.
God bless you.