by Ricky Doc Sauceda
Psalm 139:3
You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.
This month marks the thirteenth year since I have been divorced and once again single in life. In 2008 the third and last of my three children had graduated high school. His siblings are seven and six years older than he. The end of a 28 year journey with my ex-wife had concluded.
I focused on my Christian faith, lots of Bible study and a daily life of prayer. In these past thirteen years I have changed jobs, taught Bible classes, remained a dad to my two sons and am still single. I have also become a grandfather to a remarkable boy that I refer to as Little One.
I have had new friends, connected with some old ones, and became known for what I am doing at this moment...writing. These days it is much less than in the past decade. Why? I don't have as much to share in the way of supernatural happenings, although I do continue to have visions and experience events.
I turned 59 years old in August and I feel it. I am a bit banged up from a car accident while working about five years ago and am having a few other issues take place now. I hope that I am able to find a level ground in my life to steady myself and muster up some good strength and redirect my health...only time will tell how that turns out.
I look forward to being able to fully retire in the next ten years. Not having a job to go to will not be an issue. My first one was at age 16 in Conroe, Texas with a Wendy's restaurant. My first manage was bug eyed and had tussled hair and was the kind to choose favorites. Through my years of employment I have observed good and bad bosses and coworkers.
I also learned how I can be those very same things. As a boss, employee, husband, dad, uncle, brother...you get the picture. The good and bad that we see around us can be used to measure ourselves. It's just a matter of who you want to be.
We all have our lives to live like watching an hour glass each day. We learn good and bad ways, we live good and bad ways. We can change or not and remain the same.
I hope that I still have the ability to change and be better as a person. I deeply want to please those I care about and be a good person. It matters to me.
Will I be around in another ten years? I don't know. But, if I am I hope to be communicating from a nice quiet little town, taking daily walks on a country road and being a good child of God.
Matthew 10:13
If the home is deserving, let your peace rest on it; if it is not, let your peace return to you.
Amen.