by Ricky Doc Sauceda
The most productive things I have put energy into are my relationship and understanding with God, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. Learning to pray, and knowing what wondrous things result from it. The other is...raising my children to know the Lord...it has been their Saving Grace in this difficult past year. They are so precious and I never meant to hurt them by my actions. I pray every day for them.
My actions were to initiate the ending of my marriage. I thought I had it all figured out. I did not. Now, they are working on their strength through their relationship with the Lord. Gratefully, it is there. But it isn't there by any other reason than the Lord had me put it there. When I wasn't instructing them, my mom was. Ricky Jr has read the entire bible and knows it; his friends find him to be a reliable adviser. Teri fellowhshipped with many friends over the years, and carries her grandmother's ways of "right and wrong," although she is familiar with the bible. Christopher is like his brother and is studying the Catechism of the Catholic Church: the way it is designed and why. He is also reading the bible at this time; he started with the Old Testament and his brother is walking him through it. They discuss it every day and are bonding in a whole new way.
So, I have done right by sharing my love of faith with them. They all are fond of the memories of their grandma sharing her love of God with them. They are going to be okay, but I still feel bad that I got to my threshold with their mom. I have thought about it a lot and know I could not continue in that relationship. I accept where the Lord is taking me and I recognize that He is also working with my children. And for those of you who need to know about their mom...she is not in our walk. I am praying for her every day. If you need more than that, just read my poem "A Plea To My Love."
(Just so you know, yes I did try to share the bible and the message with Yolanda. She said she did not like reading the bible and my views were strange. I got her to study in a Revelation Seminar with me at one time - she struggled with it. She did not like me teaching the children through the Word and never participated in our talks. She would always walk away. She kept the Study Bible from the Revelation Seminar.)