by Ricky Doc Sauceda
Psalm 33:18
Behold, the eye of the Lord is on those who fear him,
on those who hope in his steadfast love
About forty years ago I was in a happy mood and feeling loved. My mom was having me study learning lessons and reading an encyclopedia set, which included dictionaries. Mom told me I was going to do something with my life and that being intelligent was a key. My dad got home from a hard day's work and was sitting in the living room. I told him that I was going to do something good with my life and be a respected man. Well, I hit a nerve and the next thing I heard were these words, "You're are going to be good for nothing! A bum!"
I was stunned and just walked away numb. My family had dinner and watched TV and then we settled into our rooms for the night. The whole evening I could not get my dad's words out of my mind. I was so upset that I lay in my bed crying. I got up and put some clothes on and went outside by the garage. Mom had brought me up to believe in God and so I looked up and started calling out to him. I was crying and asking him to please not allow my dad's words to come true. My little dog was helplessly looking at me and licking my hand - trying to comfort me.
For some reason my parents discovered I was not in my room and began searching for me. After awhile, they found me outside and my little talk with God was over. I don't recall anything after that, but I do know I went back inside. Much further down the road in my life, during my senior year in high school, I discovered the story of Hagar and Ishmael:
Genesis 21:17
God heard the boy crying, and the angel of God called to Hagar from heaven and said to her, "What is the matter, Hagar? Do not be afraid; God has heard the boy crying as he lies there.
This story amazed me because God heard the cry of the child. He watched over Ismael and blessed him as he grew up. I really felt a great sense of hope by reading this wonderful story. It made me wonder if God had been with me as I grew up. But now I know, as a grown man, that the Holy Spirit was always with me. I have been hearing about the Holy Spirit since I was a boy, but it wasn't until this year that I finally "got it."
Once on my Facebook profile page I had a little statement: Faith with a KISS (Keep It Simple Stupid). Trust Jesus...that is all you need to do. Amen.
My revelation of this came during my year of revival. I finally got the spirituality of the Christian faith figured out by my daily devotional routine. It has made all the difference in my strength and having the ability to overcome my challenges. I have a full awareness of the Holy Spirit and I am in constant communication with him. I am actually being counseled and inspired each day by the Helper. He was sent here by God just for this purpose. The moment I was "clear" enough for him to connect with me was amazing.
I was on my way from home and stopped at my church to pray at the chapel. Well, we have a new building and the new chapel is secured and you need a pass code for access. So, I went to the old worship building where there are several prayer stations. I got on my knees and was praying with my eyes closed and it happened - an eye opened up and was staring right at me. I see this eye when I close my eyes...the Eye of the Lord.
He occasionally asks me,"What do you see?" Sometimes he shows me different things and all of it has to do with lights, formations and auras. When I answer him, he laughs and I thought this was strange at first, but now I laugh too. He is always telling me to have joy in my heart because I am in the favor of the Lord. He tells me to continue walking on the path of the Lord and to stay in the light of the Lord. All of us have this relationship when we accept Jesus Christ as our savior. All of us gain the favor of the Lord when we are reborn or born again.
I wanted to share this with you because I need to. This has to be shared. It is not right for me to be afraid of mockery or ridicule. I told the Lord today He is my focus and that I love Him...so I need to live up to it. Please accept my story with your love and understanding.
Blessings to you.